The Curse of the First Child.

Family stories can shape us in profound ways. Whether understood as inherited beliefs, intergenerational trauma, symbolic patterns or spiritual experiences, they can influence how we move through major life events.

The following story shares one client’s experience during a Crystal Dreaming® session. Like all inner journeys, the images and experiences that emerged were deeply personal and meaningful to her.

A beautiful new mother came to the clinic to experience a shamanic journey.  She wanted to explore her deep dark family secret. It seemed there was a curse running through her lineage with the early death of the first child.  Her family had seemingly suffered this horrific trauma and intolerable loss for generations.  She remembers times of her aunts and cousins losing their first-born child under tragic circumstances and the hopeless fear that fell upon the family.

Memories of secrecy between the adults with hushed conversations trying to protect the children from this unfathomable reality.  It was a troubling well-known fact amongst the family and sadly the women entering the joy of motherhood had to contemplate the inconceivable loss of a child as a possibility.

This strong, sensitive, kind and loving woman had a termination as a young woman she wondered if this was aligned to be symbolic of this allegorical curse. Her first born beautiful baby was only a precious few months old and at the birth she experienced a moment of her baby’s monitored pulse flat lining on the monitor screen, at the moment she freaked out, believing that she too was about to lose her child. Shortly after the monitor showed no activity it started up again and she went on to experience a relatively easeful birth. However she felt deep sadness since then and couldn’t shake the traumatised feeling in her nervous system.

It was for this sickening feeling post birth that she decided to explore shamanic journeying.  As she surrendered and deepened into the altered state induced by the crystal mandala she was recalled to her recent birth.  Recalling the moment of the monitor ceasing to show any activity, During her journey she experienced an encounter with the symbolic presence of the child who spent a short time within her womb, the soul thanked her for allowing it to transmute karma within the short period they were together.

As the journey continued an invocation for any being that may have placed a curse on her family’s lineage was called.  A destitute female villager from the 15^th Century appeared.  She begged for forgiveness and explained she had placed the curse incorrectly in a moment of grief and anger after loosing her own child to illness.  Her sadness and regret were palpable and she did not want to cause any further harm, she had been mistaken and regretted her actions immensely.  She was immediately forgiven and forever grateful for bringing her suffering to an end, Within the journey she experienced the family pattern as being released. She left the session feeling significantly calmer, lighter and more able to be present with her new baby. The story was dissolved and her soul was beautifully summoned back to light.  The client left relieved and lighter no longer feeling anxious.  Calm was restored to her nervous system and a new found freedom to lovingly nurture her beautiful baby.

About Rachel Hanrahan

Rachel Hanrahan is a Crystal Dreaming® & Shamanic Journeying Practitioner at Kundalini House in North Fitzroy. She also teaches Yoga, Yoga Nidra and Qigong, bringing decades of experience in meditation, movement and spiritual practice to her work. Rachel supports people through emotional healing, life transitions and personal transformation with compassionate, grounded guidance that helps reconnect them with their inner wisdom and deeper sense of self.

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Rachel Hanrahan is a Crystal Dreaming® & Shamanic Journeying Practitioner, Yoga teacher, Yoga Nidra facilitator and Qigong teacher at Kundalini House. If you’re curious about whether Crystal Dreaming® could support your own healing journey, you can learn more about the modality or book a session with Rachel.
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